Hypocrite

I hate this empty feeling like my world's about to end. 

I listen to this preacher and his sermon makes me mad;

What kinda God would send me to the ninth level of hell,

Just to prove the fucking point that i cant do it by myself? 

I hope you know that i don't understand your fucking plan. 

Is this break me or make me into a better man?

I've always known that you work in some mysterious ways, 

But to wipe out my life in one day? Damn!

I finally realize that I don't have a word to say.

The fucking hate-filled lyrics just keep boiling in my brain.

I'd like to say "I'm sorry Jesus about what I said"

But that would be a fucking lie come from the deepest pit of hell!

I wanna stop these feelings sprouting poison in my brain

I think my fucking God isn't so so goddamn inhumane

To break my live so cleanly if he didn't have a plan

To turn my life around and lead me to the promised land. 

I hate this kind of nonsense about trusting just in God, 

I've been a skeptic almost since the time that I could walk, 

But somehow when my life is only broken wrecks of dreams, 

I become a hypocrite and beg you Lord to help me please.