Depression has always been a problem for me. Well, not really a problem. More like an annoying happenstance. I frequently go through periods that leave me so absolutely dispirited that it requires the use of *cough* 'uppers' to put me in a frame of mind which will allow me to leave my house and go to work.
Depression is a problem that almost everyone will have to face a couple times in their life, whether it's that boyfriend who left you for your best friend, or that husband who beats you for no reason.... You may even be like me, and get depressed because of......well.....no reason at all.
Well, it's a bit harsh to say no reason. I get depressed over simple stuff: there's too much sun.... not enough sun.... too much wind....not enough wind.... Simple stuff, actually. I guess that makes me maniac depressive? *googles*
So... I've always said i was Maniac Depressive, I just didnt know that it was another name for bi-polar disorder, which you may have noticed was something that a person with the disorder diagnosed me as having!!! *facepalm* Well, be that as it may, I get depressed. Constantly. Like stand-at-the-top-of-a-building-and-wonder-if-it-would-be-better-to-jump-off type of depressed.
Not that I jump.... but I wonder. I used to cut myself (those familiar with my tumblr blog already know this). Eventually though, i found a more pleasurable way to manage my depression. I am a great fan of music and I am also very sususceptible to the emotions broadcasted by what I am currently listening to. Noticing this, i performed a series of experiments on myself that resulted in what I dubbed 'audiotherapy'. Now, I am aware that this is a real therapy process, but I have no clue if they do it the way I do...*googles*
So... It's called 'Music Therapy', and there is a branch of it that interests me, namely neurological music therapy. It deals which what areas of the brain are stimulated by what types of music and how this translates into emotional and cognitive stimulation. I should read up on this more.
But anyway, its an idea. I don't know if there will be anyone reading this who'll be depressed, but it's worth a shot, right?
-Kapil Dev
-Necrodevz
Depression is a problem that almost everyone will have to face a couple times in their life, whether it's that boyfriend who left you for your best friend, or that husband who beats you for no reason.... You may even be like me, and get depressed because of......well.....no reason at all.
Well, it's a bit harsh to say no reason. I get depressed over simple stuff: there's too much sun.... not enough sun.... too much wind....not enough wind.... Simple stuff, actually. I guess that makes me maniac depressive? *googles*
So... I've always said i was Maniac Depressive, I just didnt know that it was another name for bi-polar disorder, which you may have noticed was something that a person with the disorder diagnosed me as having!!! *facepalm* Well, be that as it may, I get depressed. Constantly. Like stand-at-the-top-of-a-building-and-wonder-if-it-would-be-better-to-jump-off type of depressed.
Not that I jump.... but I wonder. I used to cut myself (those familiar with my tumblr blog already know this). Eventually though, i found a more pleasurable way to manage my depression. I am a great fan of music and I am also very sususceptible to the emotions broadcasted by what I am currently listening to. Noticing this, i performed a series of experiments on myself that resulted in what I dubbed 'audiotherapy'. Now, I am aware that this is a real therapy process, but I have no clue if they do it the way I do...*googles*
So... It's called 'Music Therapy', and there is a branch of it that interests me, namely neurological music therapy. It deals which what areas of the brain are stimulated by what types of music and how this translates into emotional and cognitive stimulation. I should read up on this more.
But anyway, its an idea. I don't know if there will be anyone reading this who'll be depressed, but it's worth a shot, right?
-Kapil Dev
-Necrodevz
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